After last night’s post, I decided to jump in and see what that would look like living in New York. I decided to WALK to the grocery store. I have NEVER ever done that before let alone in a neighborhood that I’ve never been to in a completely different culture. The urge to speak and to smile at people is rooted SO deep in me that I honestly feel like I’m in shackles when I’m out. I wanted to smile at so many people while on my walk but was quickly reminded that people don’t do that here. That is so mysterious to me.
I got my groceries and headed back home. My walk was not even 5 minutes and when I got home, I paused to reflect on what I just experienced. I have entered into a new type of life and I don’t know how I fit in. God is definitely going to have to show me how He wants me to be. But then He reminded me that I’m not supposed to fit in. Honestly I still don’t understand what that is going to look like for me in this season. I am a very friendly person because I have the joy of Lord within me. I’m just going to leave that alone right now.
So after I ate my breakfast, I got a sudden boost of energy to organize my room and closets. I am settling in more each day. When you feel comfortable in your own home, you begin to be comfortable with your surroundings. I’m already secure in who I am in Christ so I must transfer that into every area of my life. Tonight’s post is very short I know.
I’m going to combine tomorrow and Sunday together as a post on the eve of my 32nd birthday. So I’ll check back in with y’all Sunday!!!!
3:2 Discussion question… What have you accomplished that you’ve been putting off?
‘Til next time my loves remember that when you do one thing that you were apprehensive about and when you actually do that, more than one thing will come from it. That is just the door to open up other things that needed to be done as well.
Raise your hand if you have ever become overtaken by the newness of something. Whether it be a new job, car, pet, home, promotion, relationship, career, gadget and the list goes on and on. Have you found yourself stuck in that initial moment when you experienced the newness of whatever you had? What did that do you in the first moment of interacting with it? Did you have a sense of wholeness? Or feel that you have arrived honey? Whatever you felt in that very first moment, we can all agree that the initial emotions and feelings went away.
At what point do we get past the initial feelings and into the reality of the power that our newness can and will have over us?
I’m asking these types of questions to get your mind and actions from being stuck in the initial moment that align with putting actions behind the newness.
So as you know by now I have moved to New York just a few days ago. My lifestyle since I graduated college has been that of GO,GO,GO. “Go after it”, “make it happen”, “do whatcha gotta do” etc. As I’ve had these few days to reflect and just sit quietly before God, I have realized that I don’t know how to be ok with not doing anything. I think I’m afraid that I may become too comfortable with not doing anything that I literally do nothing. I’ve had to push myself out of the mood of just laying down into make plans and write them out. I’m not saying don’t do anything, the way that my life has been set up and the current season that I’m in, I can’t afford to settle into the newness for too long. That will completely go against the purpose of why I’m even in New York.
I am being very transparent tonight! I absolutely love it here already and I know that I can get distracted easily. Please check in on me to make sure that I am still walking in my purpose. I have so much to do for the Kingdom but the difference this time is, I have God’s power to make things happen to help build His Kingdom. I know that it’s not my doing but it’s the Holy Spirit that is within me. I had things backwards before, it was me doing things in my own will, not God’s. I know better now!!
3:2 Discussion question: What newness have you settled deep into lately?
‘Til next time my loves remember to push past the newness smell and into the natural scent of where you are called to be.
Hey y’all!!! I’m going to miss hearing y’all LoL!! Today was pretty chill for me. I rested more and allowed myself to be ok with doing that. I didn’t realize how much my lifestyle was based on service. So now that I’m in a completely different region and season of life, I am going to have to learn how I fit in.
Ok so I couldn’t sit still that long. Ordered me an Uber and off I went to church. My roommate told me about Uberpool so I decided to try it out tonight, the lady that joined my uber didn’t talk at all. She only said hello when she got in the car and thank you when she left. No eye contact or pleasant smile. That drove me crazy not to talk to people. So when I got “there” my driver dropped me off across the street from it, mind you this is an extremely busy intersection. I asked him if he could get closer and he said no, so I got out and held my bible and my purse close as I said a prayer. I had to look like I knew where I was going and like a New Yorker while inside I was praying that I wouldn’t get hit by a car or robbed. So let’s just thank God I didn’t get hit but a car seemed like it was very close to me but I wasn’t going to look at them. As I walked inside the church now late, Bible study had already started and I absolutely loved it. We actually studied different stories in a different way and had discussions. I will forever be a life long learner. I love learning! Afterwards I was introduced to THE sweetest people that welcomed me in with open arms. A family even dropped me back home so that I didn’t have to uber again. God has a way of doing things perfectly and timely.
Jump in…. As you learn how to swim, in order for you to even begin the process of learning, you actually have to jump in and get wet. A lot of times we don’t even want to jump in, we just want to hang out around the pool. Do you find yourself waiting for someone to TELL you to jump in, waiting on someone to PUSH you in or you are TERRIFIED to jump in? Either one that you are identifying with, they each require a certain type of person to carry it out.
For example I could’ve told myself that you should get all settled in before going to visit churches, or do more research on the area of town of these churches, rest more or even it’s absolutely too cold to be out tonight. But I decided to jump in because I’ve decided that my walk with God should not depend on how I feel or others. If you’re struggling with jumping in… ask yourself the discussion questions that I will post at the bottom.
This was my outfit for tonight! I had on gloves and eventually put on my hood while I was standing outside waiting for the sweet wife of the husband that dropped me off at home. We actually got snow today and it was such a sight for me to see in person.
3:2 Discussion questions…
- What are you holding back from jumping into? Whether it be a goal, your purpose or something that you are fearful of doing. Identify that and pray directly towards that to break that chain on fear.
- Do you think that you are only affected by the fear of you jumping in?
‘Til next time my loves remember to jump in and learn the process of what God is trying to teach you so that you can teach others.
I have been non-stop since 6:30 a.m. Today has been such special day. My church family is simply amazing! I was THE biggest cry baby today and hate saying goodbyes. Being able to share some last laughs with my friends surely made my heart smile.
n the eve of my big move, I sit here still in disbelief that the day has finally come. I’m going to post pictures from today. Tomorrow I am going to go into more details. I’m keeping it very light tonight because I still have to finish packing. Please keep me in your prayers.
‘Til next time my loves, I will be blogging from NY tomorrow!!!
Today was such a day full of love and surprises.
I am overwhelmed by the love that has been shown today.
Tonight’s post is super short and all I want to say is THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL OF YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT!!
Tomorrow is going to be the hardest day yet! Please pray for me
Here’s a pic from my family time at my granny’s house today.
I love my family so much! I’m going to leave it at that because I’ve cried so much today.
‘Til next time my loves remember to always cherish each moment that you have with your family and friends.
My morning totally started off in a freak out mode. I won’t go into details but long story short I was looking for a very important document and couldn’t find it. So I had a cry out to God moment and said “God you are looking right at it so I need you to show me where it is” and right after that, He led me straight to it. I literally tore up my room trying to find it. I praised Him for helping me find that.
My praise this week has come from a new place in my heart. I can’t sing certain songs without crying because they touch my soul in a special way like never before. I know that my new season that I am walking into requires a new and deeper level in God.
As I think about all that I have to do still, I don’t think that it’ll all get done. But I know that when I shift my focus off of what I’m lacking and onto I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me, I am able to tackle each task with confidence. My prayer is for guidance and a clear mind to get everything sorted out and ready to go Monday morning!!
Saying more of my see you later to some precious people that are so dear to my heart.
Honestly the hardest thing about moving is missing everyone. I can’t even imagine how Jesus felt when He told His disciples the He had to leave them. The way I’ve been crying cutting up and feeling like there’s a HUGE hole in my heart doesn’t even begin to scratch the surface of Jesus’ heart. It’s so hard to look past that and accept what’s ahead of me. That’s why the title is “Is this really happening?” My heart is still in a state of disbelief but my spirit is in a state of the best is yet to come so get ready. My flesh has been defeating me on most days so far. I will choose to be lead fully by my spirit and switch my focus. I am super excited and ready for this new chapter but I had no idea that all of these emotions and new levels of who God is continuously molding me to be would be involved so deeply.
This is the season that God showed me how He views me and I think that’s the toughest part to accept. I am humbled and excited to see what He has next for me. I know that He is already making things happen on my behalf and will continue to open the doors that I’m supposed to walk through.
3:2 Discussion question: When change is involved, what are some things that can cloud your view of your circumstances and your future?
‘Til next time my loves remember to walk in the Spirit!!!!
Today has completely filled me up. Even though I cried this morning again, my day has been full of such AMAZING conversations and fellowship.
As I chatted with one of the young ladies from my church whom I absolutely love, we talked about when it’s time to depart from others and how difficult it can be. This is her senior year and she’s feeling the same way I am. But we are both hopeful that we will see each other again. We ended our conversation with laughter, hugs and a see you later!!
My dear sweet friend took me to lunch today and the conversation was so timely and full of confirmations and “GIRL I haven’t verbalized that to anyone before only God knows that I thought about that” types of moments where God was speaking through her. My mouth dropped several times and the blessings that I received just warmed my heart. So much came from our time together and I thank God for our special friendship.
My last see you later moment was with my women’s small group family. It’s just something about when people lay their hands on you and pray over you. I absolutely LOVE these ladies SO MUCH!! They are truly my inspirations, prayer warriors, protectors and so much more. God knew that I needed each of them for such a time as this. Oh yeah and I DEFINITELY cried like a baby tonight.
I got to say see you later to so many people this week and it just makes my heart so full knowing that I am leaving my legacy and brought some change/spice to my church family.
God is showing me more glimpses of who He is and reminding me that He sees me. God sees what you need and all that you are doing for the Kingdom. He knows that it’s not easy but His rewards are unbelievable. Stay in His will for your life by being obedient and saying YES when He tells you to do something. I’m living proof. Watch God happen.
Stay tuned for more……
‘Til next time my loves remember to say see you later and not goodbye. Goodbye is permanent and see you later is temporary.